"You know me inside and out,
you know every bone in my body,
you know exactly how I was made,
bit by bit, how I was sculpted from nothing into something"
Pslam 139:15
The past two days we have been taking a few steps ahead. Clara is on her way up and clear of infection. Again today I got good news about everything. Every daily test came back great. They were able to ween on her vent just a little, all her blood gases look good, her hemoglobin was okay, electrolytes good, etc.
She was a little puffy, because of all the fluids they are pumping into her, so she had lasix this morning. They thought they may try to extubate her tomorrow but because of fluid they are going to wait until next week. This recent scare of infection has put us back, so I pray soon she will be ready for this.
Clara did have a little episode today after lunch. I had actually for the first time in a while took a walk down the hospital and sat and had lunch.Usually we stay very close outside the NICU and sit and eat. When I walked into her room, she began to brady and detstat. Nurses flew in, the alarm was set and Drs, more nurses, came flying in. Turns our Clara had spit up and the tape across her mouth holding the breathing tube had gotten lose. They think she must have turned her head and the vent tube dislodged itself. I had to wait outside and watch several worked on bagging and intubating her again. Very scary but yet I was very calm. Maybe it's because I was still on such a high from just getting through this past week, or maybe it's because I am getting used to all of this (as they said we would) Someone stood with me and talked me all the way through it. The staff there is amazing. Many assured me this was just a fluke, nothing wrong with her that lead up to this. I stayed much later than I had planned until she calmed down and I waited for some tests to show she was okay. It was hard to leave and travel so far from her. There is so much guilt with that.
Despite with Clara's episode. I count today a plus and I am filled with hope for the same tomorrow.
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