12:30 Surgery

They just took Clara. Very hard for me to give her away. Hardest yet. We spent a good bit of time talking to anesthesiologist, Dr Stone and the huge team of people that will be taking care of Clara for 4 hours. Clara will have an epidural, that will work for her all week and relieve her pain a good amount (if it works). This is too cut down on the amount of narcotics, but I am sure she will get those too. Clara has always been seen by the pain team here at UNC for surgeries. They will also visit her everyday for pain management and develop a plan for pain medications at home. In our past experience with Clara, she will need a good amount of medication to help her. 

I spoke to Dr Stone about why he is not using a spica cast on Clara vs a wedge. He gave us his main reasons for not, especially that they create other other complications and it would be harder for her and us. This theory is based on experience of not using them on kids, and maybe surgeons that still do don’t have this experience. I am not confident in this decision, but really I am not for any of this. 

After I said we have been praying about our decision  to do this surgery now, he said his family prays nightly about all his patients at the dinner table. He prayed with us and Clara before he left.  Which was a blessing. 

I am not sure if Clara will be on the surgery floor or PICU. We will probably be here five days. 

I came across the above this morning. It made me think about the plans that GOD has for Clara’s life, and that how my heart says no for this surgery, but  maybe it will help with those plans. 

A chance to be more comfortable physically, do more perhaps later. 

I don’t know how things will be, pain, epidural, cast no cast, 7th floor, PICU, etc? I wish I had complete control of it, but I don’t. 

 But I do know of the Lords epic goodness and power. With HIM and in HIM it will be okay she will be okay.