In returning and rest you shall be saved;

in quietness and confidence shall be your strength. 

Isaiah 30:15 

I don't know if I will ever stop worrying about Clara. Two months have gone by and I still find myself waiting for the bottom to drop out. As if bad news is around the corner, will get sick? What's her future to be like.... will one day she talk, run, play, develop.  

Sure as I begin to spend time in worry I SLOWLY remind myself that not so very long ago in her hospital room I released her into God's hands. Very difficult to do then, and more so now. With Madeline it is the very same. I think it is the lack of control, this fear of letting go. However none of us can do it on our own, and doing it with God gives great PEACE. 

I write about this tonight because I thought to far ahead, comparing, and wondering. 

I looked at her tonight after her bath, and said again like I have said so many time before to her, "whatever comes we will get through it. We will be okay". Then I prayed to be saved from this worry... that really we all have.