God rewrote the text of my life when I 

opened the book of my heart to his eyes

2 Samuel 22:25 MSG

When I was a child I was told, as every child is, that Jesus is always with us. I think the idea that he dwells within my heart was just too complicated for me as a child to understand. So my interpretation was that he literally follows me around and is "with me". I can specifically remember thinking he sat on stop signs as I played outside. This memory has stayed with me for so long. 

As I got older the idea of the Holy Spirit was again complicated. One of the "most mysterious members of the Trinity". (Gertg, God's Umbrella) For years I hate to say that the idea that God, Jesus was with me, was just so abstract. And as I told others God will take care of you, pray, I didn't even understand it all. I knew the truth, I believed but I didn't understand how it worked. 

In the beginning after I had Clara I really wanted my God literally right next to me. I wanted Jesus flesh and bone in her room after we had bad news, during her surgerys, when she was so sick we couldn't touch her, in the car on the way there or on the way home.  Many times I asked, for that. Because again, the idea that he was with me anyway was again so hard to understand. 

However soon I began to understand the truth. The Holy Spirit was with me. It comforted me, made me strong, and it lead me. Again I couldn't see GOD, but I began to feel that he WAS behind me or beside me, pushing me. He lives inside me. As I began to rely on God completely  the Holy Spirit worked for me, guiding me with love, and ensuring it would be okay no matter what happened. 

 Just as a child it was almost as if I could SEE.  Through other people, my family, through my marriage, through words, music I could SEE. 

Jesus told us that we have someone to take us through life, that dwells within us the entire way. 

He will give you another counselor to be 

with your forever-the Spirit of truth....

You know him, for he lives with you and will be in you. 

John 14:16-17

I speak of all of this again, again and again because I feel GOD has rewrote the text of my life through Clara. My heart has been reopened. "God's story is my story. They indwell together". (Lucado, God's Story You Story"

  We are always looking for ways to rewrite the text of life. Looking for change, a new job, a new direction. And as much as I have tried, and maybe you have as well, we can't find that within ourselves. The bible says...

"It's IN Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in every-thing and everyone" (Ephesians 1:11-12 MSG)

So it is my HOPE that we all look to GOD for his plan for our story. The Holy Spirit will be guiding our way, cheering us on!