Closed Doors

Lately I have just felt so compelled to write about a personal experience that happened weeks ago. This morning I was reading chapter 8 "The Right Doors Open" in Max Lucado's book "God's Story. Your Story" and I made my mind up that I needed to share it.

This year as many of you know has had a profound effect on me. My life, my decisions have had to be and still are faith based. I can't make it without deeply trusting God, and thoughtfully praying about everything.

This summer an opportunity arose that I thought would be just so perfect for me and our family, espeically for Clara.  And despite everything I went for it, and yes it even worked out! How great it felt, the door was opening! A years worth of hardship had become just so heavy, and I was so relieved something was easy and wonderful was happening. But little did I know......

Two days later the door slowly started to creep back closed. The opportunity became just a little less easy and those obstacles set right back in. Four days later I had to turn it down, and it broke my heart. Another closed door it felt like.

This decision was no easy one. I prayed, sought advice from friends and family before making up my mind. I twisted and turned it to make it work, but all along the answer was no. No again. So it seemed.

However after I finally made my decision, a day or so later I had just an enormous amount of peace and clarity. I still do.

Clarity to know that what an awesome opportunity God gave me with amazing people that like me, at an amazing place.  And even though I am not ready for it now, I realize more now than ever, I will be one day. Also Clarity to know I am again right where I need to be, at a great place, where God needs me. Where my family needs me, and where my sweet Clara needs me.

His ways are far beyond anything I could imagine. He will unblock that door and many more and open better ones one day. He loves me that much! And he loves you that much too. "its not that are plans our bad, but that God's are better" Lucado.

Max Lucado says "When God locks a door, it needs to be locked. When he blocks and path he needs it be blocked."

What ever doors you have that seem shut, don't despair!Give God the glory, trust his ways and realize that things happen sometimes the way they should to prepare you for what it better.