We found out we were unexpectedly pregnant in April of 2013, had Clara 15 weeks early, fast forward later through a bunch of her stuff and M gets diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. In one breath it felt like my world changed and I was to change.
I am enough. I tell myself that everyday. I am good enough, smart enough, strong enough for Jason, both girls, especially Clara. However I have discovered, that am not without Jesus.
I recently read "Kisses from Katie", a Christmas present from a dear friend. What an awesome story of having a passion to follow God.
Near the end of book she discusses 1 Kings 17.1
“I don’t have any bread—only a handful of flour in a jar and a little olive oil in a jug. I am gathering a few sticks to take home and make a meal for myself and my son, that we may eat it—and die.”
You see there was a great drought and God told Elijah to set out and He would provide for Him. He was to meet a widow in Zarephath that would supply Elijah with food. He found her picking up sticks, and asked her for water and bread. She replied "As surely has the Lord your God lives." and the rest above. You see she had nothing else to give.
13 Elijah said to her, “Don’t be afraid. Go home and do as you have said. But first make a small loaf of bread for me from what you have and bring it to me, and then make something for yourself and your son. 14 For this is what the Lord, the God of Israel, says: ‘The jar of flour will not be used up and the jug of oil will not run dry until the day the Lord sends rainon the land.’”
The widow did has he asked. Then everyday then after there was food for Elijah and the widow and her family. The jar of flour did not get used up, nor did the oil run dry. God provided for them.
I think about that widow, how she so freely trusted Elijah and God and I want to know such extreme trust as that.
"I am learning to HOPE when nothing makes sense and to know that GOD knows best even when what He is asking of us seems impossible." (Katie Davis)
It is possible to survive throughout sadness, hardship, and hurt. I know because God has showed me that. He asks us to live above those troubles and trust him. Just like the widow gathering sticks.
We will ALL have unexpected turns and twists, that take our breath away. No one is to escape struggle. "However God will give you great power and strength to meet those with a smile. You will begin to see your struggles as He sees them. He will help you decide what is important and what is not and He will fill your heart with peace and joy that no one can take away from you." (Jesus Calling for Kids)
I pray everyday for God to draw me close to his heart for power and strength, so I know I am enough.Then the Holy Spirit whispers you are enough, with moments like in the photo above, and He fills my soul with peace and joy!!
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